i feel insecure.

i know it may sound absurd or just pure rubbish to you,

but i so effing badly want you to know that i do feel very insecure and that my trust in you sometimes totally drops to a level of absolute zilch on the trust-o-meter,

and when those uninvited insecurities come by knocking at my door, i start doing things that are out of MY norm and out of MY usual audacity, or to just cut it short i start contradicting myself, prolly in the name of unsweet sweet revenge.


sometimes love and trust can really take its toll on you.
especially when insecurities start to seep in and start to add more fuel to the fire.


i may be pointing fingers at you, but it can ALL actually lie in MY immaturity altogether.

i don't know what to do or say to make you understand.


understand that i love you so bleeding much which is why these insecurities start seeping in,
for if i have nada love for you, i would not give a shit damn, righto?