Just MAYBE..
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
MAYBE, I should not have allowed the new feeling to overcome my weakness at that point of time.
MAYBE, I was just in the WANT of a new muse but actually it's the old muse that I NEED.
MAYBE, I should not have allowed my ego and my pride to take the best of me when I know that it was the only source of making me feel exceptionally special.
MAYBE, I should just go drown myself for having this contradiction which I can lie to others but definitely a contradiction that I cannot lie to myself.
Worse is just the sad realisation that this could never be true.. Never ever..